Pain that Breathes

歌名 / Name：会呼吸的痛 / Hui Hu Xi de Tong / Pain that Breathes
歌手 / Artist：梁静茹 / Liang Jing Ru / Fish (Jasmine) Leong

zai dong jing tie ta di yi ci tiao wang
在东京铁塔　第一次眺望
at the Tokyo Tower, first time looking out

kan deng huo mo fang zhui luo de xing guang
看灯火模仿　坠落的星光
looking at the lights imitating the fallen star

wo zhong yu dao da dan que geng bei shang
我终於到达　但却更悲伤
I’ve finally arrived but sadder than before

yi ge ren wan cheng wo men de meng xiang
一个人完成　我们的梦想
I‘ve achieved our goal

ni zong shuo shi jian hai hen duo, ni ke yi deng wo
你总说　时间还很多　你可以等我
you’ve always said, there is still lots of time, you can wait for me

yi qian wo bu dong de, wei bi ming tian jiu you yi hou
以前我不懂得　未必明天　就有以后
before I didn’t understand, that there’s a tomorrow, doesn’t mean there’s a future

(***beginning of chorus)
xiang nian shi hui hu xi de tong ,ta huo zai wo shen shang suo you jiao luo
想念是会呼吸的痛　它活在我身上所有角落
missing you is the pain that breathes, it lives on every part of my body

heng ni ai de ge hui tong, kan ni de xin hui tong, lian cheng mo ye tong
哼你爱的歌会痛　看你的信会痛　连沉默也痛
humming the song you loved hurts, looking at your letters hurts, even the silence hurts


yi han shi hui hu xi de tong ,ta liu zai xie yi zhong lai hui gun dong
遗憾是会呼吸的痛　它流在血液中来回滚动
regret is the pain that breathes, it flows back and forth within my blood

hou hui bu tie xin hui tong, hen bu dong ni hui tong ,xiang jian bu neng jian zui tong
后悔不贴心会痛　恨不懂你会痛　想见不能见最痛
regretting not have cared enough hurts, hating not have understood you enough hurts, wanting to see you but can’t hurts the most


（***end of chorus)

mei kan ni lian shang zhang yang guo ai shang
没看你脸上　张扬过哀伤
didn’t see any sadness come across your face

na shi zhong duo me ji mo de jue jiang
那是种多么　寂寞的倔强
that is such a lonely stubbornness

ni chai le cheng qiang ,rang wo qu liu lang
你拆了城墙　让我去流浪
you’ve taken away the safety wall, and let me out on my own

zai yuan di deng ,wo ba zi ji kun bang
在原地等我　把自己捆绑
staying put, I’ve bundled myself up

ni mei shuo ni ye hui ran ruo ,xu yao yi lai wo
你没说　你也会软弱　需要依赖我
you didn’t say, that you may become weak too, needed my support

wo jiu zhuang bu xiao de, zi you yi dong zi wo de guo
我就装不晓得　自由移动　自我地过
I pretended that I didn’t know, moved freely, lived my own life

***chorus

wo fa shi bu zai shuo huang le ,duo ai ni jiu hui bao ni duo jin de
我发誓不再说谎了　多爱你就会抱你多紧的
I promise I won’t lie any more, how tight I hold you means how much I love you

wo de wei xiao dou jia le, ling hun xiang piao fu zhe ni zai jiu hao le
我的微笑都假了　灵魂像飘浮著　你在就好了
my smile is all fake now, my soul seems to be just floating, it’ll be okay if you are here

wo fa shi bu rang ni deng hou ,pei ni xiang zuo de wu lun shen me
我发誓不让你等候　陪你做想做的无论什么
I promise I won’t let you wait, I’ll be with you for whatever you want to do

wo yue lai yue xiang bei ke, pa xin bei ren chu peng ,ni hui lai na jiu hao le
我越来越像贝壳　怕心被人触碰　你回来那就好了
I’m more and more like a shell, afraid of being contacted by people, it’ll be okay if you are back

neng chong lai na jiu hao le
能重来那就好了
it’ll be okay if everything can just start over

A 2" Long Cut, A Deep Prick and 27 Superb Friends

Okay, I shared a bed with someone who snores. But I didn't kiss him. I shake his pillow whenever he snores.

This blog post is all about my Pangkor trip with my coursemates last weekend. Finally, after 2 weeks of preparation, arrangements, cost-cuttings, cancellations and what not, it is the time to take off. Four cars will depart in the morning while another two in the evening.

A shot before departing to Lumut

We reached Teluk Nipah at 12 noon, which the time is well within my expectation. We snorkelled in the evening at around 4PM. Came back to the shore at 6PM to realize that the girls are happily playing in the water.

"Skodeng FoC" at the beach

At night, it was the gluttony time. We overbudgeted food for 27 persons. I think we prepared food for almost 37 person, which explains why a full 3' x 2' x 2' plastic box of food is being stored in my room overnight.

Refuse to be photographed in the morning.

Waking up the next morning for beach volleyball. To my surprise, the court is being maintained by somebody, and we need to pay RM20.00 to use it. Yes, the guy claimed that he maintained the court yard well, but we found 2 piles of cat dung buried in the sand. WTF!

It's in between Mena and Jimi, so one is claiming responsibility on this ball.

Oh i forget to mention kayak. It cost RM15.00 per kayak per hour, shared by 2 person. We rowed around a small island opposite the shore.

The last picture before leaving Teluk Nipah

And, a 2" long cut, a deep prick and 27 superb friends from Pangkor trip.

Pre-Pangkor Trip Joke

NO ROOM AT THE INN

A man needs a room for the night. He stops at an inn and asks for lodgings. The innkeeper says that he doesn't have any rooms available but there is one big bed in a room that he can share with another man but he must warn him that the man snores so bad that no one can stand it.

The traveler says that would be fine. Next morning he comes down all smiles and tells the innkeeper that he had a great nights sleep.

The innkeeper was shocked and asked the man how he was able to sleep with all that noise.

The man said, "Simple, when I got in the room I leaned over and kissed the man on the cheek and said 'have a good night, beautiful'. He stayed awake all night watching me."

Holy cow~ I ain't gay (Teluk Batik photo taken by Mat Ley, 2008)

Sichuan Quake, Revisited

I got this from an email forwarded by a friend from my hometown. Credit to the author, Coco Wang for collecting touching stories of victims, volunteers and rescuers to tell the world in the form of comic strips. These amazing and touching stories are known only to the people inside China. Sichuan quake, revisited.

THE SONG OF MIRACLE

THE BOY WHO LIVED

JUST ONE MORE

TAKE MY WINGS

I MUST BE STRONG


MY FATHER IS A HERO


THE LAST LESSON

Period.

A Night Out With Mat Le, Medea and Mena

I had been working hard for my Final Year Project for 3 days consecutively. Collecting spot speed data is not as simple as I initially thought, but nevertheless I actually enjoyed hiding inside the bushes, inconspicuous to the drivers.

Lucky me, I had a helping hand with my job yesterday evening. Mena was too boring staying in-campus that she decided to join me for spot speed studies nearby Bota,Perak.

I am quite into this type of job vis a vis speed voyeurism. The peeping tom at work

A million thanks to Mat Le too for being so kind to lend me his motorbike. My project would cost hell a lot more if I drive my own car to the study location.

I am now well ahead of schedule, with aplenty of time for other work. An outing to Ipoh would be a good reward for myself for working so hard. Bowling was our first stop.

Hey that was a STRIKE!

After bowling, it was around 12.10 midnight. Snooker centre adjacent to the bowling place is closed. So, we went to Seven for pool, instead.

Bragging session : My five consecutive stripes to victory!

Clumsy Mena is working hard to master the basic skills of cueing. She improved a lot in a night's time, thanks to supervision and lessons from 3 sifoos. Not bad for a beginner actually.

Lesson No 1 : Holding the cue properly

The night of clean fun ended at Padang Polo Ipoh. We chatted for one hour at the park before speeding back to UTP.

Use Durex Save Dumex

Ohh that's surprising! How is that possible? Some participants in a popular local forum even allege that prostitutes boosted the statistics. Even funnier, a male participant calls the manufacturer of the condom a liar because he is a loser and he haven't been in a relationship, yet.

Be realistic. We don't live in Shangri-La. Face the truth. Shangri-La only exists in a popular novel, Lost Horizon, written by James Hilton in 1933. Our world is not earthly paradise. It is too utopian to think in a way that we can put Shangri-La and our world, juxtapositorily.

PRE-MARITAL SEX : WHERE IS THE BOUNDARY LINE

As being described by Paul Stenzel, any type of genital contact is considered sex. The boundary line is just clear. Yes. Oral sex is sex. Physical intercourse is sex. A man penetrating his female neighbor is sex. A secondary school kid thrusting his girlfriend inside some bushes is sex. "Medically speaking, they're very clear, because any type of genital contact can transmit disease."

In my opinion, there's no line to draw. It is not like playing "Territory" when we are still kids. Strictly speaking, having sex is just a matter of choice, whether you want to do it or not. Of course, many factors come into consideration before you do it. Unwanted pregnancies, mental distress, STD but I tell you, breaking the law is the last thing in mind of many teenager couples.

PREMARITAL SEX : AN EMOTIONAL TORTURE

Say you are in one of these situations:

• You are playing it safe. You use a condom. Oh not because your partner insisted you to, but on your free will. However, you don't know that certain type of lubricant somehow weakens the bond between basic isoprene units that make up condoms. You played it hard and the condom bursted. You did not realize it until you got up from your bed for a hot bath. (Haha you are unlucky!)
• You don't use condom because it deprives you of the sensation. You are pretty confident you can withdraw at the right moment. But you are too into your position that you blow up in her. (Pray hard you won't multiply!)
• Both of you are lost somewhere in the steamy world of sex. The girl's dad shouted and knocked down the door. He punched and kicked your ass. (Haha you are lucky coz he did not bring along a parang!)

Imagine the extent of emotional distress and guilt you will feel right away. You won't know for sure whether your girlfriend is pregnant or not. You wait anxiously for your girlfriend's menses. You keep thinking what will happens if she really got pregnant. Family looked down upon, unwanted child, guilty feelings haunting you, Pak Haji come running for you, long life emotional effects and what not.

PREMARITAL SEX : WHAT RELIGIONS SAY

"And go not nigh to fornication; surely it is an indecency and an evil way." (Qur'an 17:32)

"Marriage should be honored by all, and the marriage bed kept pure, for God will judge the adulterer and all the sexually immoral." (Hebrews 13:4)

***

Is sex recreation, or re-creation?

This Caught My Attention

Forgive me for not posting the new article that I have promised. This caught my attention when I surf through blogs of "Yang Berkhidmats (YBs)". It is a letter from a Law student to YB Lim Kit Siang (MP-Ipoh Timur)

Click here : Road Block Cause Failure in CLP Examination

For your information, "Certificate in Legal Practice (CLP) is one of those qualifications entitling the holder to become a qualified person. The examination is conducted by the Board by virtue of section 5(e) of the Act. Applications to sit for the CLP examinations are open to holders of Bachelor of Laws (LL.B) degrees conferred by the universities in England, Wales and Northern Ireland and certain universities in Australia and New Zealand whose qualifications are not gazetted under section 3 of the Act." (The Malaysian Bar, 2008)

Well, since we are talking something related to law, let's see this. This is something which I least expect to happen.

Click here : Aina Mardiah Sharial, 17

External link : Disquiet by Malik Imtiaz Sarwar

Moving Out

A close room mate of mine graduated and left me alone with one more semester to go for. Officially he is a graduate and a "liability to the society" since Petronas have not call him up for work, yet. To me he left all the good wills and hope, and a big water dispenser too. I pray for his success in life.

While training, Master Shidu of Kungfu UTP answered a phone call. (Photo credit : Wei-zhu)

I moved up to Level 4 of the same block where I have previously stayed for 6 months. Of course the view is magnificent here. Lushes of greenery surround New Village 5, and micro-climate here is temperate. However, it can get a bit hot in the room especially rooms with orientation facing the afternoon sunlight. One good point of moving to a room so high above is no mosquitoes. My previous 6 semesters staying on ground floor has been terrible. We have no choice but to close the window when night comes, sleeping in a stuffy room for more than 8 hours.


Yeah did I mention that I got a new pair of spectacles? This is me, caught cam-whoring with my new spectacles.

I might need Schick Quattro Razor. Chew, any trial shave?

Oh god. I am hungaray~ I ate only a burger for my lunch. I shall pen off and begin the quest for dinner.

Next post : Use Durex, save Dumex.

Market Prices

For sale? Uh huh nope but the Russian girls fetch a really good price at this parlor. They were popular back in 1990s. Well I think the price list is quite a match to the market value. I don't understand the Chinese characters, but I'm sure it is quite "meaningful".

Don't get yourself in unnecessary problems. Stay away from vices. AIDS and STD statistics in Malaysia is quite scary, just so you know.


External links :

Malaysia Aids Council
Progress Report 2008 : Malaysia's Fight Against AIDS

High-Rise is A Passion

1981

I found an old copy of CLEO magazine that back-date to 1981. It was in a box unopened since we move from the old house to the current one that I am staying now. The magazine itself is older than myself, yet it maintains the way it is though a little bit yellowish and dusty.

Together with the magazine, I found one copy of National Geographic magazine dated back to 1994, covering Ireland and Crimea as the pick of the month. Both the articles are really long that I only flip through pages with a lot of pictures. Together with the "loot" from the treasure chest; a diskette and a floppy disk which is not labelled.

This camera advertisement attracted my attention. FASHIONFLASH was launched in UK some where in 1981 and took the market by storm. It must be the big-boys' toy back then.

Decore? Heard the name before, but I couldn't find any of the product in hypermarket shelves.

Hahaha now I know how Kent cigarette packaging looks like back in 1981.

And how power-suits for OL looks like back then..


This is the new look of Cleo magazine in 2008 on its website.


How the world have changed since 1981..

Software Engineering Explained

The Complete Dummies Guide to Engine Oil

Get To Know The Bad Guys In Your Engine

Internal combustion of petrol with air gives your car the power to go further, but it also produces by-product harmful to your engine, clogging up the interior parts. These by-products are call soot, a type of black powder produced in combustion. On higher heat and RPM of most performance vehicle nowadays, engine oil of good quality is no longer a luxury treat for your Number 2 Darling. These type of good oil contain certain additives that help to reduce wear and tear, maintain viscosity and to suspend the soots.

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How Bad Are The Bad Guys?

The oil become so saturated with soot and contaminants from prolonged used that they will build up and form sludge at the bottom of your engine. It increases the wear and tear inside the engine, resulting in less response on highways. Your morning start-up will be a nighmare too.

Protect Yourself From The Bad Guys

The bad guys are there all the time. They are by-product of combustion process with air and petrol. That means you can't get rid of them. All you can do is change your engine oil frequently so that sludge won't build up in your engine.

Oil Change Interval

Somebody will say "Okay, now I'm confused. How frequent is frequent? Give me some values. Numerical values."

Many people debate on the proper oil change interval. Those sitting at mamak stalls say 5000 km. Those sitting at kopitiam says 7500 km. Some kids down the block say 10 000 km on high quality synthetic oil. Which one is correct?

Of new car less than 1 year old which is still under manufacturer's warranty, it is advisable that you follow the manual book. A complete manual book comes with every new car purchased. (Look into the dashboard compartment if you don't see one in your car.) Each time you send your car for normal or severe service, there will be some markings and official verifications to show that you follow the maintenance schedule accordingly.

A routine check before you travel long distance reveals dirty black engine oil. It does not mean that you need to go to have the oil changed immediately. Modern engine oil, called detergent-engine oil works in a way that it suspends the soot and contaminant from the combustion process. That is why the oil is black in color. By following the manufacturer's recommendation, you will never go wrong because you change the oil long before the oil has become saturated with soot.


Anyway, both Malays and Chinese call them "black oil" in the own dialect.

However, maintenance schedule differs by country, even for the same car. A Nissan Latio in USA and a Nissan Latio in Kuala Lumpur have different service regime and package. This is because of difference in quality of fuel used in both countries. Have you learnt in high-school that petroleum extracted from Malaysian reservoir contains less sulphur? Come on, recall the facts!

For cars relieved from warranty, here comes the tricky part. You can still follow the recommendation from car manufacturer, but with a longer service interval of course. Comes this tricky part, it all follows your money. From my conversations with a few of my mechanic buddy, they recommend 5000 km service interval for any car less than 10 year old.

Personally, I go for 7500 km on semi-synthetic Shell Helix Plus. If you are with your car for some time, you can notice the deviation from its real performance, especially while overtaking other vehicles on highway. Over time, a far deviation from its real performance rings the bell. It's time to change the engine oil.

Shell Helix Plus made a hole in my pocket for every oil change, making me RM 90.00 poorer and that is excluding oil filter, spark plugs and workmanship. For your information, I am driving a Proton Iswara 1.3 Manual, clocking approximately 148 000 km from 11 years of service life.


On what the numbers and alphabet printed on engine oil packaging means, let me quote from Shell Malaysia's website.

Below the word ULTRA, note 5W-30. It means the oil is able to maintain their performance in high and low temperature. The first number (followed by "W" for Winter, not Weight) indicates the oil viscosity under low temperatures. The second and higher number indicates the oil viscosity under greater temperatures. Most modern engine oils such as Shell Helix Ultra are multi-grade, which minimizes the viscosity differences under temperature variations. The higher the number, the thicker the oil. However,there is no such thing that the thicker the oil is, the better it is. Using oil which is too thick for your car can clog up the bearing clearances.

Normally the lower the first digit in gradation ,the higher the price is. 0W-30 is certainly more expensive than 5W-30 due to quantity of base stock. Mechanics will tell you that the lower the front digit, the thinner and the lighter the oil is, resulting in easy morning start-up and powerful acceleration. This is true though.

Ehem, girl drivers..don't get yourself cheated by dishonest mechanics. They might put mono-grade SAE 30 oil in your car engine and say "This is very very good" and charge you a whopping RM 90.00 for it. My quick and reflexive response will be "Fcuk you mister mechanic! Monograde SAE oil is not for use in modern passenger vehicles. Possibly lawn mowers!"

Exclusive car such as Bimmers, Benz and Volvo require more stringent service schedule. Some generous owner send their cars in, even at 3000 km. This is due to misconception that exclusive vehicles are heavier hence the engine is stressed up more compared to normal sedans. A service bill exceeding RM2000.00 is considered normal on a new E-class Benz. Well, I don't know. Rich men have deep pockets. Any Bimmers, Benz or Volvo owners reading my blog post?

So, This Is Malaysia's Roadtax?

My father came back from the town with 2 pieces of cards. I was wondering what they are until he handed them to me. They are road-tax stickers, for the Iswara and the Toyota. Without a word, I understand that he wants me to replace the old road-tax stickers on both cars. So I compelled.

The road-tax sticker on my car windscreen has been made hard and "crunchy" from the gruelling hot sun in Tronoh, which means... I have to scratch it away bit by bit using a 20 cents coin.

After scratching the crunchy layer off the windscreen,I have to use petrol to clean up the sticky dirt. What a hassle!

Finally I got the sticky dirt wiped off. Frankly, I don't have any idea on how to remove this "crunchy" roadtax behind any tinted windscreens. Anyone care to share?

So, this is Malaysia's roadtax, huh?

Mental Retardation

Mental retardation is a term used when a person has certain limitations in mental functioning and in skills such as communicating, taking care of him or herself, and social skills. These limitations will cause a child to learn and develop more slowly than a typical child. Children with mental retardation may take longer to learn to speak, walk, and take care of their personal needs such as dressing or eating. They are likely to have trouble learning in school. They will learn, but it will take them longer. There may be some things they cannot learn. (National Dissemination Center for Children with Disabilities)

I saw this retarded boy in front of a grocery shop nearby my house.

Now you know what is mental retardation. It affects 3% of the population. (The Arc, 2001) So what's the cause? It can be broadly classified into 3 classes, namely prenatal, perinatal and postnatal.

PRENATAL

• Chromosomal disorders
• Gene defects
• Exposure to toxins during pregnancy

PERINATAL

• Prematurity conditions
• Infections

POSTNATAL

• Infections
• Lead poisoning
• Metabolic disorder
• Head trauma
  

Approximately 50% of the children with mild mental retardation will have no cause identified. However, children with severe mental retardation are much likely to have a cause found. Testing might include chromosomal analysis such as Down Syndrome test and Fragile X Syndrome. More intensive test such as MRI can also be done, including psychological test to evaluate their IQ. (http://www.keepkidshealthy.com)

Children with mental disabilities can do well in school, but they need individualized help. Special-need schools are set up for eligible children of schooling age. Other than that, I've found a few good website dedicated in supporting Malaysians with disabilities. I suppose one or more of this care centres are set up in every states in Malaysia.

PERSATUAN PENJAGAAN KANAK-KANAK TERENCAT AKAL JOHOR BAHRU

Ministry of Education's Sekolah Kanak-kanak Terencat Akal

Ministry of Women, Family and Community Development

Some other useful links/articles :

Seksual di Kalangan Kanak-Kanak dan Orang Dewasa Terencat Akal

Registration Form for Disabled Person